A family member of mine (not direct), has been recently diagnosed with cancer.
These news are never good. There’s never a good way to deliver them.
I was so happy with the holiday spirit and all. Now it all kind of deflated. Every time I think of something happy, I remember ‘oh, wait, no, someone has cancer’.
It makes me feel like… Like who knows?! Maybe I have cancer. Maybe everyone does, but we’re not diagnosed. It’s scaring me.
I’ve been searching about causes and symptoms for cancer, and I just… Ugh. I’m trying to convince myself that no, I don’t have any of these things, I’m fine. But am I?
I just loved that person! They don’t deserve this at all!
The doctor said that it’s completely curable, but will take time and pain. I don’t know how true this is and if the doctor is saying that because she’s also part of the family and doesn’t want to worry us, but I’m hanging on to that.
Still, it’s not all well. In order to get treatment, this person has to go through something awful. Downright horrible. I can’t even think about it.
Why is there still no simple cure? Why is fever or a cough more treatable than that stupid disease?
Okay, I know I sound like a two year old complaining, but I just can’t think straight.
I just hope, hope, HOPE everything will be fine. It won’t, there’s still going to be bad news everywhere in life, but I still hope. God, please.

Update: First of all, you guys are the best people. Your comments all cheered me up a huge deal. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.
Second, it really intrigues me that every single one of you know at least one person with cancer. Most of them have survived, which is honestly reassuring. May the souls of all the fallen warriors rest in peace.