As some of you might know, I write a personal journal. Yes, the one I considered a novel.
So, as usual, after telling myself that I should probably sleep instead of watching youtube at 2 A.M. and ruining my eyes and brain, I turned to the red-covered diary sitting at my bed table, opened it up on today’s date and started scribbling.
It was on the left page. As I wrote about the completely boring things that happened today (yay no school tomorrow thanks storm!), my eyes shot towards the second page. The right page.
The blank page.
I was suddenly hit by an instant realization: my future lies between those pages. It is waiting to be written. And it’ll be written by my hand. But at the time of writing, it would already have been my past.
I did not think of it or ponder on it for one second. It was like an cartoonish lightbulb moment. Some sort of Eureka.
I looked again at the page, more intensely, like I could read between the lines, like if I looked enough, I would get a glimpse of what these lines hold, or will hold. Will have held.
It got me thinking. What if… What if I could write these pages right now? Fill them up with my expectations, or what I want to happen, or maybe even my deepest fantasies?
Who knows? Maybe it’s my Death Note, but instead of taking lives to extend my own, I just… Write my own?
The concept is fascinating and I would love to explore it. But I do feel like there have been books written about that before. It just really seems amazing.
I am now sort of fearful towards my journal. Who knows? I keep repeating to myself. Who knows what will happen during the 322 remaining days?
I dread the bad news so much that I can’t even consider what the good news might be.
If right now, you tell me that if I open my diary I will find it completely written, I’d be in total confusion and dilemma. I don’t know if I would want to read it or not. I’m leaning towards not, but still… I want to be prepared if something ever struck.
A realistic thing I could do is maybe write a little note to myself on random days, that’d be a nice – or maybe not – surprise for my future self (except if I remember writing those). Or maybe, put up little expectation boxes, goals I want accomplished, personal reminders…
For now, I’ll just keep writing daily. And just like you, just like everyone on this planet, I’ll have to wait for tomorrow to find out what it holds.
Mind. Blown.
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BOOM.
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I’ve never even thought about it that way whoa… that’s pretty mind blowing
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Ikr?! It’s freaky!
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This was pretty damn insightful. Amazing! I never thought of it that way, bruh.
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Thanks! It surprised me as well.
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Good luck with writing everyday though! Even I can’t manage that.
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Whyyy it just takes 5 minutes! Give up on like 1 youtube video a day or write it listening to 1 song, and it’s done!
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What. Is that even possible? I’m like the slowest writer ever. My last post took 2 days to finish.
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A post takes quite a long time, yes. But with a diary, it’s only one page. You can scribble a single line if you want to, or fill it up. You dont have to edit yourself, you can be as messy and incoherent as you want because it’s just you who’s reading.
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But I’m a perfectionist si even if it is just me reading, I can’t help but proofread. Sigh.
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You are overthinking a lot! Idk what idea you have of my diary, but i can tell you it needs no proof read xD it’s just me listing stuff that happened like im telling them to someone.
You gotta get up and tryyy tryyy tryy
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Thanks for putting that song in my head. 😂 And yeah, I’ll keep that in mind.
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YOU GOTTA GET UP AND TRYYY TRYY TRYYY
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Oki sory ill stop
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Darn right you should. 😂😂😂
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Damn Antony, that got deep so quickly
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I know xD I just felt like exploring my deep side
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I could see your inner Aristotle in that post 😀
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THERE SHALL BE NO MENTIONS OF ANYTHING REMINDING ME OF HORRIBLE PHILOSOPHY LESSONS ON THIS BLOG
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I sahwy 😦 Pls accept my apology 🙂
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CHALLENGE ACCEPTED
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Woops. I mean apology?
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Yes you did lol 😀
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